Getting back on track

ball point pen drawing of a stream with trees
©2022 Carolyn A Pappas, Stream Sketch (9/19/2022). Ball point pen in A4 moleskine.

I have wanted to update this site for many months now, but I have had a wake-up call recently and I have decided that if I don’t do it now, then I might now ever do it. I am at home, with six weeks off from work, recovering from a big abdominal surgery last week in which I have learned that I have ovarian cancer. I haven’t even heard the results yet from my doctor, but I read them in the results that popped into my MyChart account. I’m not sure how I should be feeling. I’m trying to be positive right now, but I’m also wondering what went wrong with me to have had this happen.

I haven’t been drawing much at all this past year. I started a new job, moved, got married and was focusing on a lot of other things. I’ve been under a lot of stress generally. In my new place, I even have a room dedicated as a studio, yet I haven’t spent much time in it.

In the next few weeks, I will remedy that, of course. I am busy researching nutritional/natural healing plans and I’m pretty sure I will have chemo in my future, but I know in my gut that I need to start drawing again because it is the greatest stress relief I know. Please follow along as I post updates, photos, and sketchbook pages on this site. I am going to update my own blog with most of this information as I would like to maintain a record of my work that is not connected to a social media site.

I would also appreciate your prayers too – thanks for reading.


  1. Oh Carolyn…it is good to hear from you again, but SO sorry about the reason. But yes, drawing is a way of getting out of our own heads, it’s calming and helps us to focus. Much, much love to you…

  2. Katie says:

    Dear Carolyn, I’m so sorry to hear of your diagnosis and I hope you don’t mind but I will be praying for you to beat this and that the return of focus to your art will be a great part of getting you through this season, that your art will bring you deep peace, joy and the experience of wonder at nature’s place in our lives. Your art has been a lovely escape for me for years and especially during a recent season of great trauma and sadness. May you find the best path medically and mentally for a full healing.

  3. Nouna says:

    Very intricate and beautiful, Carolyn. I’m also very impressed with your openness and strength. It must have taken alot of courage to put this out. God bless you.

    (I’m already on your mailing list right?)

  4. Katie says:

    Tried to leave a comment yesterday, but it hasn’t ‘stuck’ apparently. It was heartfelt but I don’t have the ability to recapture my words.

    I’m incredibly saddened to hear of your diagnosis discovery and I hope you are okay with being prayed for, as I will certainly do so.

    May your renewal of desire to share your art making with your admirers bring you much joy, may your time spent planning and creating play a huge role in bringing healing to you. May you find the best path forward medically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally to walk this out and arrive at deep wellness. Your art has been a calming balm for me for a very long time, and especially so for the the last couple years of upheaval and trauma that has come my way.

    • Hi Katie, thank you so much for your kind words. It means so much! I didn’t realize that I had comments in the moderation queue so that is why your comment did not appear until now.

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